The interview wasn’t as scary as I was expecting, but to be honest I did rehearse an “elevator pitch” about my book all morning long and on the car ride to the bookstore. I even rehearsed my own biography in case they asked about my career journey, which feels really stupid to admit, but I even rehearse my pizza orders before I phone them in so there’s that. I get so flustered talking on the spot and sometimes it makes my mind go completely blank, even about projects I’ve worked months on and even about my own life that I’ve lived. Being over-prepared does help though, even if it feels silly. I’m not great at being “on” spontaneously. Do you ever feel that way too?
In addition to being over-prepared, I remind myself that I’ve done scary and hard things before and it’s a thought that does give me some comfort. With each additional thing that I add to my list, like this interview, other things that pop up in the future seem less scary. It’s like all the obstacles and accomplishments pave the way in some sort of cumulative journey of things becoming less scary.
Anyway, I feel proud of surviving a video interview! Even if it’s something small, it’s definitely going in my repertoire for when I need a reminder someday that I’ll survive other scary things too :).